365 Days of You

1 year ago today i stared in disbelief at two little pink lines. And then another set. And then another... For weeks after the pregnancy was confirmed I took more tests. I was so afraid of believing it. Of getting excited. It seemed too fast, too easy & I was so scared of losing you. You were already a you, to me. The moment I confirmed your existence, you were you. And I was someone completely different. I was a mother.

Your daddy & I talked about what you might be like. He laughed at me for believing so strongly that you were a girl. 50/50 chance he said. . . But I knew. 

We talked about saying goodbye to our lazy Sundays; our lazy everythings, really; our spontaneous trips; our late night dinners. But so quickly the conversation turned to how amazing it would be to have you join us. It's hard to explain, but you were never just a baby, Annabelle. You were always unique, irreplaceable, specific. I could feel "you" for so long before we actually met. You were always my girl. You were always Daddy's proudest accomplishment. You were always our third adventurer. Although it would be almost 9 months until you joined us on earth, 1 year ago today, two became three. We love you sweet girl.